again again and again.

May 25, 2009 Posted it late for some lame reasons.

Ok ok. Another blogging comeback after months and I’m sick and tired of comeback rants. Lots of stuff pild my head up and I guess a little blogging could help.

I dunno how to put it in an organize manner but I came up doing doing bullets.

• I realized I am now 20 years of existence. Well, it’s not my birthday or something but it is now that I really absorbed the fact that I am now 20. If I’ll follow and track back my supposed years of staying in college, I should be finish and graduated but I’m not. I guess I just grew up late to realize how important my studies were. Though I do good at present, somehow I still felt remorse regarding my early years of time and efforts wasted. A while ago I saw a former classmate. She’s now working on a laboratory that is associated with a known milk product. GAH! How I wish were on the same boat right now. But then, I am happy for her.

 

• I took up summer picnic class. Oh well, 9 units goes like maple leaf flown away by autumn breeze. As I said it was like picnic. I knew it would be since it is summer class and at the beginning I thought of it as a shortcut. And all happened as planned. I have to graduate as soon as possible!

 

•  I plan to get a part-time job this June. I was feeling that I’ll have an evening schedule of class this semester (if not, then I’ll request for an evening one LOL!) so part-time jobs could be possible. The thing is I wanted to be more productive and independent. It’s not like a new year’s resolution or something like that but.. Uhmm… Ok! to be honest, the reason for this is to compensate for this feeling that a moron should now be working and not depending his ass out of his parents! XD

 

• I am the PRO of our church’s national youth organization and I am wondering if my lazy butt deserves the seat. Personally, I aim to be the best PRO this organization ever had but honestly, I dun think I’m making difference. I wanted to be used by God, to serve more, to do my best, and more, more, more! I just wish I could.

 

• YOUTHEO summer camp. We organized a sumer camp and after so many problems and hindrances we had encountered, it all went well. (I could say) For me it was a great one but I myself knowing IF ONLY we do this or that, then it could be much much more effective. All praises to our God who worked in the said event. It’s really Him and not us who made things happen. I saw it myself (though not visually) and I know its Him who worked on us. It made me excited that I wanted to tell everyone about it and it gave me the urge to write something about it here.

 

• A friend got pregnant. We were startled to heard what happened to our friend. She, our friend, the least we expect for her to happen? It’s really something that drops your head down after being heard it. Well, we know her. No fingers should be raised to point out whose right or wrong. What they need is understanding and friends to lean on. My prayers are with them.

 

• I had a crush on this girl. GAAH I hate myself for being like this. They say it is man’s nature to be polygamous or something equivalent. But I think it’s just me who’s different. I had a girlfriend and I love her. But why am I feeling this way! GAAAH!! I don;t think I am normal when it comes to this kind of matter. But after doing some prayers and meditations, readings, I’ve realized it’s not a romantic relationship that I should concentrate myself to. I wanted to break loose and get myself back again. But with where I am right now, I dunno how to start. I dun want to hurt feelings again. No! not at this time.          *breath out* I’m just so bad.

 

• I want my online-living back! Our desktop is not working and I’ve used up all the knowledge about troubleshooting I had but I always end up frustrated. Dad had his laptop pero ang damot! My sister also had hers but she’s not around so I can’t borrow her laptop. GAAAH!!

 

The draft of this blog is written on my notebook. I dun have any computer to type it, how much more an internet to get this uploaded! How pathetic I am.

 

Tatay: Aalis ako pupunta kami ng Baguio mamayang 1am alis namin. Mag-ingat ka dito sa bahay mag-isa ha? Maglinis ka ng bahay, lock mo pinto pag aalis ka, bayaran mo yung telepono, eto pera panggastos mo hanggang biyernes. Biyernes na uwi ko. blah blah blah!

Jimboy: Opo.

Tatay: Mukang madami kang sinusulat ah. Galingan mo pag-aaral mo lalo.

Jimboy: Toinks!?

~ by cornolio on June 1, 2009.